i am sick and tired of everything in my life at the moment. i really need a slap in the face (not literally of course) but my life is getting boring. i don't know if its just me, but every one around me seems to be getting out there and enjoying life. i feel im just trailing behind, im average, my life is average. well thats not good enough, i want more than just average! another thing that really bugs me, is when people are 'naturally' smart, or 'naturally' pretty/ skinny. I have to work so hard at every thing, i watch every thing i eat and i don't even get to enjoy food any more because when ever i eat something 'naughty' i feel guilty straight after. look, i know i must sound totally shallow right now, people are dieing in our world and here i am complaining about something so pathetic but i feel like having a bit of a moan and this seems the best place to let it out, so just let me!